this is not a good time to blog. well, it is never appropriate to get distracted while studying. but... i haven't started yet! i was just going through my tumblr and realised that i haven't been blogging anything personal. but then again, this blog is so open, any one could see it any time.
i really don't know what is the point of this blog post. just that, i'm really sober. like, i have never ever been drunk before. i might be suggesting that i need to be drunk because "being sober hurts like hell". well..... i'm not that dark.. but sober as in.. i am painfully aware of what i am doing, of what i am NOT doing. my tumblr is probably the most intimate thing in my life right now. it does not look like it, but.. it is a reflection of what i want, what i dream to have, what i can only imagine to be fulfilled. like nothing words can describe.
..i just cried watching a few episodes of Naruto. it's silly, but i felt better. they were choking me ever since the projects - which was about 4 weeks ago - started piling in and stressing me out, giving me unnecessary pressure and crazy thoughts. at least it's over now. all i have to do is to face my last paper in a few more hours' time. then i'll be done. 6 weeks to seek self-enrichment and then it's off to my last semester in SP. maybe then.. i can finally do what i have been wanting to do?
the point is.. i have too many 'wants' that i don't know what to do.
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