i just had three durians to myself. the weather is cold. the buildings in my estate are grey, like the clouds in my head. i'm feeling full, feeling lost, feeling like i need to do something but don't know what.
so here i am. blogging. lifeless. i hate what is going on in school now. but i love the playlist i'm listening to now. because of the workload, because of the bullshit i have to put up with everyday, i only want to escape. it's only natural instincts. not an excuse.
and i think it's because of the songs i'm listening to, oh god i love indie bands, indie songs, summer, i love. with this weather, i just want to lie down on wet sand. i want to be at peace, look at the grey clouds roll over the grey sky, i want to sing aloud without anybody around, i want to bury my feet in the sand, and scream at the crashing waves only to be drowned out with the screeching of gulls swooping over the tides. can something just be right for once?
i'm happy. i'm just not showing it. yet.
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