i hope i'm not crushing.

so.. i wanna ask someone out. but i am really, really shy.

i hope i'm not crushing on him because it will be terrible.

anyway, what makes it worse is that i'm already... like.. well, i keep trying to talk to him everyday. even though i told myself i will not do it today, but i couldn't help it so i msn-ed him. oh my goodness, i hope it is not obvious or make him feel that i'm annoying or dorky.

i'm prepared for a rejection, but just for the record, i.. um, only want to know him even more. well, similar to the ney-ney thing. but this time, i am trying to know this person even more, since i've known him for three years but we haven't.. really, actually talk much? okay. imma.. leave it here.

oh god, bitch please, 21st century. walk away rejection like a true woman.

goodnight. xx